1000

I had 1000 calories today and I'm completely disgusted with myself. I totally binged and had ice cream. I wish I could vomit it back up but I don't have a gag reflex. I feel so grossed out and guilty. I want to fast tomorrow but I know there's no way I can do that without my family noticing.
I'll have to exercise more today. I managed to burn off 314 calories on the treadmill but it's not enough. I'll have to get back on again and not stop until I've burned all 1000.
If I eat anything but a vegetable tomorrow I'm gonna cut again.

On a better note, I managed to drop another pound :)
32 more to go.

I've decided I'll start adding workouts and diets to my posts in between stat updates, just to help anybody out who finds their way on here.

Totally doing this tomorrow

Best of luck, darling

- Zoe

I can't believe myself

I'm actually not entirely sure where to start, so I suppose I just will.

Hi. I'm Zoe and you've somehow stumbled upon my mess of a blog.
How very unlucky for you.

I'm 17 and live in whatever state. I've been slowly sinking into anorexia despite my best efforts (who am I kidding with that?) and my depression has me at a low I couldn't fathom a year ago.

After a week or so of browsing pro-ana blogs, something I never thought I would do, I decided to make one (another unbelievable thing. Seeing the trend?)
It may seem strange that my own behavior is catching me by surprise but, to be honest, I wouldn't expect any less of myself at this point.

As much as I would like to continue being a nihilist, this isn't the tone I want this blog to have and I'm afraid I've given you (if there is a "you") the wrong impression. I'm actually quite happy to be here, as sick as that is to admit. I've lost ten pounds thanks to Ana and honestly, I'm too delusional to regret it yet. The only problem is that I haven't really been able to talk to anyone about what's going on yet and it's exhausting to have nowhere to put my thoughts.

So, here we are. My blog-ish thing. I want this to become a supportive place for other Anas to come if they need help or just love. I hope I can make the most of my time here to let you all know you're not alone.

I'll be dumping all my dumb feelings and weight loss progress on here for the next few months. Hopefully, logging all my experiences in here helps. If not, oh well, I guess.

H: 5'1
SW: 153 lbs. (NEVER AGAIN)
CW: 143 lbs
GW1: 135 lbs
GW2: 125 lbs
UGW: 110 lbs

Best of luck, darling

- Zoe